12/11/2025

yesterday i got invited to hang out at my friend's (acquaintance's) house. im sick with a cold but im doing everything to get better because ive never been invited over this year by anyone and hes a really cool guy. theres gonna be two other seniors there too, a girl and a guy. im sort of like an outlier but i hope itll be fun. im not sure how ill go about it though because its at his house which my mom would probably not let me go too, and i don't know how far i can walk in the cold because his house is so far.. ill have to make up some kind of excuse. but anyway, i dont know! im super excited.. were gonna play minecraft and eat snacks!!

12/15/2025

he ended up cancelling his plans, so did this club leader for everyone to go to her house and bake stuff.. but i got to hang out with another random girl i used to talk to in freshmen year. shes like sort of popular but i dont know.. me and her are really different but i guess we trauma bonded sort of. over exes and stuff- i told her weird shit about my ex and she told me stuff about her ex who shes currently desperate and drooling over.. hes so ugly and weird though i dont see the potential.

12/18/2025

i have two tests tomorrow,. one in AP world history and another in pre calc. I'm focused on pre calc though because it's beating my ass.. i have a C- in the class as of quarter 2. and i completely forgot about my ap lang essay about the great gatsby. luckily i chose the narrative writing option so i dont have to write according to the ap rubric, but i need a rough draft by tomorrow mornign..... while im studying for world and calc?!?!? god. i know its the week before christmas break but this is truly ridicolous. we couldnt assign these tests or essays anyyy earlier?? i finally got my pc back after some arguing/negotiating wiht my mom- i can finally play fortnite and use pinterest freely again..